Every after heartbreak, we often find ourselves with two possibilities. First, becoming bitter and turning our backs on love. Second, being vulnerable to entering commitments we might regret.
I want to look deeper on the latter. Whenever we get away from a long-term relationship, we meet strangers. We see new friends. From them, sprouts the thought of having better relationships. This roots out from the problematic past and it becomes highlighted.
It’s as if the universe conspires to show you that that new girl is the right one for you. Everything. Her name, her voice, her ways. It’s as if the universe places her perfectly at that moment after your break-up. And it’s up to you to choose. Then obviously, it will influence your choice. You might feel she’s perfect right now, she understands and she feels the same (especially if she’s in the same situation as well).
Our ability to think rationally becomes clouded with the temporary hype of destiny. Then, eventually, problems enter.
You realize you haven’t moved on yet. You just keep telling yourself you’re ready to love again. Suddenly, you look into the bright open and understand that you still love the one who broke your heart. From this, you create a new tragedy. You hurt not just the two special people in your situation but the people attached to them.
You’ll justify your actions. You’ll say you genuinely love the new girl but in reality, you just missed the one who broke your heart. You just wanted to take vengeance out of the hurt you felt. You just wanted her to feel the gravity of her mistakes. You just wanted her to change and understand that things like that doesn’t make you better.
Then, things become worse and worse and worse.
Believe me, it’s one of the worst I’ve been through. Positioned between rage and sanity, I kinda leaned towards the latter. But I have to be brave. I chose this moment and I shall embrace it with courage.
Right now, the best option is to stay away from such commitments and channel it to yourself. Fixing yourself is never that easy but there is no one else to help you.
Cry and cry. Just cry. Then, Go to church. Exercise. Read books. Watch movies. Laugh, so hard. If you cry again, go back to step 1.
One day, you’ll see a stronger you. You have to move on and understand that you lost control. You fell and you broke. Keep the lessons and leave the past behind. Everything must go. Adapt to the changes and keep fighting against yourself for yourself.